Annual Checklist

At the end of every Christmas season for the past six years, I've had to recover my sanity. Here's a new blessing conferred on me, perhaps a silver lining to the present circumstances. I'm not tired. I am not still recovering from the chaos, nor am I looking at an inventory next week. I don't have to think about much, and yet, facing unemployment and with only a few days of health coverage left, I feel that I'm in reasonable shape. Here are some items on a checklist that I began in early October:

1)I have switched off all the services I didn't really need. When you start making serious budget cuts, you begin to see what you have and really need and the whole downsizing thing becomes easier. It's not very hard to see the grey areas when the numbers are there in black and white.

2)I have packed up most of my household, but this should have been an annual ritual, going through those things that just landed somewhere without a rationale or purpose. This is particularly helpful when you are putting your home on the market, as I am preparing to do.

3)I've realized that the big house meant big storage, and that in some ways, I stockpiled for future events that never came to pass because my life was overtaken by my storefront. So I have things to evaluate: would I ever use a propane-fueled bug zapper? I'm not sure, but having to deal with a lot of this junk has made me a believer in letting go.

4)I've taken what steps I can to be certain of my health before my coverage ends next week.
Had the physical, the mammogram, figured out how my medications could be pared down and covered by generics, sought advice from professionals on this topic, and I'm not half as worried as I was about going without. These are things that tend to get lost in the shuffle when you are overwhelmed by your professional life. Thank heavens, I am healthy.

5)I am not allowing myself to think of how I might fail in this transition. Of course, it could happen, but I won't enjoy the ride at all if I think about it that way. You can be positive that times are hard and life seems unfair at present. But I can control so little other than my outlook that I cling to my little life raft of hope.

6)In gathering up my worldly possessions, I've found some great stuff I didn't know I had. There's a matchbook with a photo of my parents laughing. The bedroom boxes yielded directions to a friend's home in Boston, pictures that I had forgotten, a book or two I had been searching for, and several missing pieces to mysterious items. I am absolutely sure that at some point I will find the matches and reunite them.

7)Instinct tells you that to survive, you have to be ready for anything. Since I am looking for a job that might be outside of the Mitten State, I'm packing some clothes into suitcases to be ready for travel in the next few months. If anything, this will keep me from having overflowing drawers when people stroll through (and hopefully fall in love with) my old house.

8)I'm making a mental list of what I have missed in life since I became owner of and owned by a business. I've missed music, and so I am playing more of it at home. I've missed decorating for the holidays, and so on one recent afternoon, I strung fake cranberry and popcorn chains along the railing of my front porch. I missed writing, and so I have now produced another blog, launched into the universe without a care about who might notice these thoughts.

So that's my year-end list that will endure, no matter where or how well I land.
I've taken care of as much as I can, and even though you may not be in a similar place, you have loose ends and whatnot and forgotten things that, once dealt with, can help ground you as the new year comes around. Good luck with it all and god bless us, every one.